From the book - Accept No Mediocre Life
"It is a spiritual conspiracy to get us to accept mediocre as a standard of life. It is a war for control of our hearts, minds and souls. What is S-'s ploy? He's fixed on our spiritual destruction. He's a 'liar and father of lies' (John 8:44). But his tactics are exceedingly subtle. He bombards us with feelings of inadequacy. He seeks to clothe our hearts and minds with a drab coat of beige. He delights when we are labeled average and mediocre, for he knows most labels are libels that limit our capacity to dream, aspire to greatness or even feel worthy to know God or accept His love. The result? We live well within our perceived limitations and grade-point averages."
For much of my life I wanted to eat "normally" like everyone around me. Problem was, I was adopted, and my family all had much different body types than I did (them - ectomorph, me - endomorph/mesomorph) and my friends all seemed to be itty, bitty petite girls. If I ate what everyone else around me ate, I gained weight. Heck, if I looked at what they ate, I gained weight. But I tried to be like them. I went back and forth between gaining weight (topping out at over 200 lbs.) and exercising to be able to eat what I wanted.
Then I got older and everyone who ate "normally" was now overweight. "Normal" had changed. I didn't want to be normal any longer. I didn't want to be average. I felt called to be better than that - I wanted to be the best me I could be. All that God created me to be, I belive that I can now achieve!
Weight and food have always been such a struggle but I realize now that the actual mental struggle was taking up so much mental energy - was I making food an idol? As they say in AA - "let go and let God".
Shellene
